INCOMPLETE...Exactly how i feel right now

Nothing best describes my current situation like this song, it used to be an old favourite, i used to listen to it cos i loved the tune, it was one of those songs i 'killed'. Never thought i would ever connect with the words. 

I CANT WAIT FOR THE MEMORIES OF NOW....I'll be fine...:)


"Incomplete" - Backstreet Boys

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I'd try to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I'd try to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

VENTING: Lady GAG...

Ode!!!

I won't even give her the privilege of posting her JUDAS video on this Blog, before my blog will be defiled...God forbid!

Anyways having watched that video and listened to lyrics, it is safe to conclude that Lady GaGa is a RETARD! I don't get why artists these days have decided to sell their souls for earthly pleasures that will be left here on earth while the rot 7ft below cement!

For those of you who haven't heard the song, these is an extract from her lyrics

                         "I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby he's so cruel 
                          But I'm still in love with Judas, baby 
                          I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby he's so cruel 
                          But I'm still in love with Judas, baby"


                         "I wanna love you, 
                          But something's pulling me away from you 
                          Jesus is my virtue, 
                          Judas is the demon I cling to"

Anyways...she has clearly defined herself in her lyrics by calling herself a 'holy fool', i can't object! 

I know all these my talk here doesn't change the price of her CDs in the market, or doesn't stop her from having all these misfits as fans or doesn't make her any poorer OR DOESNT EVEN MAKE ME ANY SLIMMER...but I WILL TALK!

Lady gaga we get it! you are WEIRD/BORING...NEXTTTT!!!!!

Nachos...x

ARE YOU OK NACHOS?....hell NO!

 

'How r u doing?'....'I'm good thanks'

NO I AM NOT!

All i do these days is listen to Sad songs.

I CANT WAIT FOR THESE TIMES TO BECOME MEMORIES.

I feel like i have become a shadow of my old self. I know God will sort me out, he always does!

Nachos...x

NON-WEIGHTLOSS RELATED POST

Hey...

I crave inner peace/happiness...things have been a little 'weird' for me lately to put it mildly.

Nachos...x

....

I sat down one random day and thought about my life, and how i have plunged into several projects and giving up half way through, of course my weight loss tops the list of abandoned projects. I have no idea what is wrong with me. I start something, feeling unstoppable and then all of a sudden i back out.

To be honest i have no excuse as to why i stopped my diet/exercise, cos it was going great, it wasn't one of those diets that kill you, this went well. The only excuse i would say is my trip to france, that kinda messed things up a bit, but i got back feeling pretty motivated, then i kept procastination; i'll start on monday, no tuesday, no after this selfridges caramel cheesecake (MY ULTIMATE WEAKNESS) i'll start, ok after this pasta that my favourite twins have prepared i will start, ok i am definitely starting after my birthday, ok when all my friends leave i will start, ok when Uni starts i will start...I STILL HAVENT STARTED!  I'm a 'WEST'!

To cut this very long story short, after a whole month of going off my diet and eating like i had nothing to gain i'm pretty much back to where i started.

CURRENT WEIGHT - 118.4kg

To be honest i am more disappointed in myself than anyone else, like i don't even know where to start from. I haven't only derailed with regards to my diet, so many other things as well, my studies(i cant remember the last time i did proper sch work), my God; I havent had a good relationship with  my God lately, we barely talk, i just throw in a quick prayer before i go to sleep, not because i want to say hi, but for my own selfish reasons. Sometimes i think of it this way, if my boyfriend doesn't say hi to me a whole day, i'll go crazy, i love attention! so i can only imagine how upset my God is with me right now. Funny how when i forget my God everything in my life just goes downhill.

I think i have just been pursuing irrelevant things lately!

Anyways having said all these...hopefully something good happens. Thanks to Esosa for checking up on me by the way.

Nachos...xxx

PROCASTINATION...

...THE THIEF OF MY TIME.

I am not worthy to write on this blog. I cover my head in shame, i'll be back in a few hours.

Nachos...xxx