The CROSSOVER

The thin line between 'LOVE' & 'HATE'....


So thin a line...

A line so thin, sometimes you cant tell the difference...

Today, the CROSSOVER, when LOVE becomes HATE.

Weird...but who cares? FUCK IT!

Nachos...x

Me, My Face & I

Helloooo,

I decided to have a little make over session on myself, by myself and for myself. I look pretty swollen in them but oh well :(

Pictures below..

Pre-Make over

This is me without any make up what so ever, just my regular face moisturiser.

This is mid way through...i've applied my foundation, powder and eyeshadow...i don't usually touch up my brows, cos i have very full brows anyways.

At this point i have kind of created a smokey effect to my eyeshadow as well as lined my eyelids (top and bottom)...i just couldn't conceal that bloody pimple.

I usually don't smile with my teeth open, so i'm learning how to :D

pouting gone wrong...:p

closer look at the eyes

Up close and oh soooo personal...lol

Hope you guys like it...i'm still learning so feel free to drop comments...;)

Nachos...x

FEED THE FISH!!!

This is just a quick post.

On the left-hand side of this blog is a fish tank, just like humans, fish require food to live. Please help preserve nature and feed the fish, there are only 10 fish left on this blog, we don't want them to go into extinction.

To feed them, all you have to do is to move the cursor to the fish tank and click away! By clicking you are supplying food to the fish.

God bless you as you feed my fish!

Nachos...x

There is this guy...

...I stalked him, I found him. But
I cant have him. He has a girlfriend (they always do).

I really like him. But
I cant have him. He has a girlfriend (they always do).

He embodies everything I 'think' I want in a guy. But
I cant have him. He has a girlfriend (they always do).

He probably likes me too. But
He cant have me. He has a girlfriend (they always do).


I see us being a lovely pair. But
He cant have me. He has a girlfriend (they always do).

I shouldn't be writing this on here, but it doesn't matter cos...
I cant have him...I probably never will


Nachos...x

...So many months have gone by

Hi Guys!

Its been agesssssssss...I KNOW!

A lot has happened since the last time i was here

1) I have lost and GAINED weight (I GIVE UP)

2) I'm officially a graduate...B.sc and M.sc in the bag!...BABA GOD NONI

3) I'm moving back to Nigeria for good in a coupla weeks....eeeekk!

4) God answered one of my major prayers...:)

5) I fell in love :D

6) I fell out of love

7) I fell back in love.....it goes on and on

8) ....but i'm still single

Ok i cant remember the rest, but i'm sure a lot more happened in the last couple of months than i have said. If it comes to me as i go along i'll update.

So i'll be moving back to the fatherland in a coupla weeks and i'm a little apprehensive to be honest. I know most of my friends have moved back and they coping alright, but i cant help but worry about how i will cope. Don't get me wrong i'm no 'aje butter' far from it! But i worry. I have spent so long in england and i'm so used to this life that i wonder how i'll adjust in nig.

There is also the much dreaded 9-5 job...chai! this isn't Uni anymore where i can decide to not go for a lecture, if i decide to not go to work ahhh it has finished for me now. I worry about my new job, i wonder how i'm going to fit in, will i like it? will i get along with my colleagues? will there be eye candies? (at least something to motivate me to go to work everyday)....sighhhh so much to worry about.

I'm sorry if this post isnt coherent enough, its basically my random thoughts, i had a lot going on in my head so i remembered i had a blog and decided to let it out here.

So i'll try to keep you guys updated with my move back and my new life in Nigeria....ok i'm not going to make any promises here cos as we all know i'm probably the most inconsistent blogger on blogosphere. Lol

Anyways i'm off to make stew, i'll be back in a bit.

Nachos...x

INCOMPLETE...Exactly how i feel right now

Nothing best describes my current situation like this song, it used to be an old favourite, i used to listen to it cos i loved the tune, it was one of those songs i 'killed'. Never thought i would ever connect with the words. 

I CANT WAIT FOR THE MEMORIES OF NOW....I'll be fine...:)


"Incomplete" - Backstreet Boys

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I'd try to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I'd try to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

VENTING: Lady GAG...

Ode!!!

I won't even give her the privilege of posting her JUDAS video on this Blog, before my blog will be defiled...God forbid!

Anyways having watched that video and listened to lyrics, it is safe to conclude that Lady GaGa is a RETARD! I don't get why artists these days have decided to sell their souls for earthly pleasures that will be left here on earth while the rot 7ft below cement!

For those of you who haven't heard the song, these is an extract from her lyrics

                         "I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby he's so cruel 
                          But I'm still in love with Judas, baby 
                          I'm just a Holy fool, oh baby he's so cruel 
                          But I'm still in love with Judas, baby"


                         "I wanna love you, 
                          But something's pulling me away from you 
                          Jesus is my virtue, 
                          Judas is the demon I cling to"

Anyways...she has clearly defined herself in her lyrics by calling herself a 'holy fool', i can't object! 

I know all these my talk here doesn't change the price of her CDs in the market, or doesn't stop her from having all these misfits as fans or doesn't make her any poorer OR DOESNT EVEN MAKE ME ANY SLIMMER...but I WILL TALK!

Lady gaga we get it! you are WEIRD/BORING...NEXTTTT!!!!!

Nachos...x

ARE YOU OK NACHOS?....hell NO!

 

'How r u doing?'....'I'm good thanks'

NO I AM NOT!

All i do these days is listen to Sad songs.

I CANT WAIT FOR THESE TIMES TO BECOME MEMORIES.

I feel like i have become a shadow of my old self. I know God will sort me out, he always does!

Nachos...x

NON-WEIGHTLOSS RELATED POST

Hey...

I crave inner peace/happiness...things have been a little 'weird' for me lately to put it mildly.

Nachos...x

....

I sat down one random day and thought about my life, and how i have plunged into several projects and giving up half way through, of course my weight loss tops the list of abandoned projects. I have no idea what is wrong with me. I start something, feeling unstoppable and then all of a sudden i back out.

To be honest i have no excuse as to why i stopped my diet/exercise, cos it was going great, it wasn't one of those diets that kill you, this went well. The only excuse i would say is my trip to france, that kinda messed things up a bit, but i got back feeling pretty motivated, then i kept procastination; i'll start on monday, no tuesday, no after this selfridges caramel cheesecake (MY ULTIMATE WEAKNESS) i'll start, ok after this pasta that my favourite twins have prepared i will start, ok i am definitely starting after my birthday, ok when all my friends leave i will start, ok when Uni starts i will start...I STILL HAVENT STARTED!  I'm a 'WEST'!

To cut this very long story short, after a whole month of going off my diet and eating like i had nothing to gain i'm pretty much back to where i started.

CURRENT WEIGHT - 118.4kg

To be honest i am more disappointed in myself than anyone else, like i don't even know where to start from. I haven't only derailed with regards to my diet, so many other things as well, my studies(i cant remember the last time i did proper sch work), my God; I havent had a good relationship with  my God lately, we barely talk, i just throw in a quick prayer before i go to sleep, not because i want to say hi, but for my own selfish reasons. Sometimes i think of it this way, if my boyfriend doesn't say hi to me a whole day, i'll go crazy, i love attention! so i can only imagine how upset my God is with me right now. Funny how when i forget my God everything in my life just goes downhill.

I think i have just been pursuing irrelevant things lately!

Anyways having said all these...hopefully something good happens. Thanks to Esosa for checking up on me by the way.

Nachos...xxx

PROCASTINATION...

...THE THIEF OF MY TIME.

I am not worthy to write on this blog. I cover my head in shame, i'll be back in a few hours.

Nachos...xxx

MONACO IN PICTURES...:)

Hey Guys...

So here are a few pictures from my trip to france, mainly pictures from Monaco...can i just say Monaco is an amazing city, i've never seen so much affluence in one place in my whole life, it inspires me to be rich!

Everyone is so rich there, or at least they look it. That city defines the word LUXURY...like everything we consider luxurious in this part of the world is just the norm there...anyways will let the pics do the talking. I hope you love them!

chike looks like a celeb here..who dash!

Now u know y i gained the weight

What does dis look like? :p

kitan aka kittykat aka aston's headgirl

Nedima aka Queen of LA

chike aka DJ C-kay

Gbemi aka Headboy

WHEW!!!.....uploading pictures to the blog is soooooo LONGGG....there are loads more, but babes r tired mehn....hope u enjoy these ones....

Nachos...x